I've started multiple blogs over the years, but I've never been able to blog consistently. Life always seems to get in the way (and blogging is pretty low on my priority list) and I always felt constrained and the things I felt comfortable actually posting were pretty boring. Like, did anyone really need to know that I ran 13 miles, ate a potato and took an ice bath while drinking beer to stay warm? No. Does anyone really care about my family/personal issues (well some people might, but it's certainly not something I want to have living forever on the interwebs, as the interwebs never forget!) I also always felt like my blogs never really had a focus - was it about running? money? family? If I couldn't figure it out, why would anyone else want to?
I came to the conclusion recently that it just doesn't matter - I just want to write. I know I'm not the best writer, but I need an outlet and I'd love to have a personal record/journal of my life (boring though it may be at times.) I have no clue what I'll write about or what direction this will take, or if I'll even stick with it, but it just feels right at the moment. I'm not going to really worry about what I post and I'm just going to go with the flow (ha! just typing that is funny, because I'm not really the most easy-going person.) Heck, I don't even know if anyone will actually read this (or if I even want them to...)
All I know is that it feels good to put my fingers to the keyboard (why does that sound creepy and slightly...pornographic? Is it just me?) I'm not exactly sure what may come out, but I'm trying to let go and have fun with it. Cliche as it is, life is short and the years are flying by. You know how you look at an old picture of yourself and you're all "how did I ever think I was fat/ugly/that outfit was a good idea and why didn't I appreciate the way I looked then? Because I'd give anything to have it back" Yeah, I don't want to look at my life that way anymore...so here I go again.
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