Day 14

My motto the past two days? "big hair, don't care." I've spent my entire life working against my natural hair. I have naturally wavy/curly hair. I know, I know, most people would love to have my problem (grass is always greener and all that jazz) but I've never been a huge fan of my curls...they are unruly (to put it kindly) and because I have really super-baby-fine hair and a lot of it...it's hard to control...and it gets big...quickly. My hair was so 'large' in my first drivers license photo, that it's off the box (by a lot....you can be sure that I've flat-ironed the everloving shit out of it for every formal photo since then.)

I've spent much of my teen and adult life plastering my hair back in a ponytail or trying to tame it in to submission with a flat iron and lots (and I do mean lots) of anti-frizz/smoothing serum. Occasionally, I'll 'go curly' but that also entails lots of gels and products to make it (mostly) behave. Since I have so darn much of it, it takes forever to do anything with it (every stylist makes a big deal about how long it takes to blowdry) and so I usually don't.

However the past few days I've been 'letting it go' - no flatirons, curling irons, curl products (I am still using some product in it because it would be downright frightening if I didn't, but I've been using much less than normal) I've even been resisting putting it in a ponytail top knot (however, I think I'm so used to doing it, that it's just automatic.) My hair is finally long enough to kind of pull the look off and shockingly I don't hate it.

Which, brings me to this - I'm actually glad that I have curly, unruly hair (ok, maybe not the unruly) it's fun to change things up and have options. I should probably take advantage of it more often. It's nice to just 'go natural.' I don't normally consider myself high-maintenance girl...I mean, I do wear makeup and sort of do my hair, but the less time I spend on it the better. This method allows me to sleep more in the mornings. I'm not sure how long I'll keep up my 'big hair, don't care' deal, but I think I might throw it into the mix more often.

One of my favorite shows of all time is Sex in the City (sorry I'm not sorry) and in the Season 2 finale, when Carrie debates going to Big's engagement party, there's a part where all the women were talking about curly-haired girls and how we are harder to tame/understand...I've always loved that scene (I'm thinking my curly hair isn't what's deterring me from a relationship, but if it's good enough for Carrie Bradshaw, it's good enough for me.) I think many people can relate to hating the way they look (or a part of it anyway,) and my hair is one of the things I always pick apart (right behind my weight and smile) and the more I can accept everything about myself, the better.